Lost love

My abidding love for you has faded
Your memory still lingers on,
but shall remain unmentioned
The memories I wanted to last forever
now drive me insane.
I sit alone and realize
how much my life revolved around you
My everyday was planned around you
Come home, be with you
stay home and wait for you
You never asked me to, I did because I loved you.
I wanted to be with you 24-7
But you didnt feel the same
I was just another anoying girl
You lied to me like it was nothing
Cheated and told me your sorry and I believed it.
Why because I loved you.
You were the one I dreamed of.
The one I dreamed of forever with
I thought we'd never part.
But things changed
You never felt the same
It dosent hurt like it used to now
But you still always cross my mind
You still have a place in my memories

Once the happiest day of my life

Once the happiest day of my life.
Has now turned into one bad memory
One that just wont seem to fade.
I remember it like it was yesterday
Long hours on the phone
Rushing home to wait for your call
Stealing every moment I could
to be with you.
Now everyone knows about you
How you broke my heart
I couldnt hide the tears anymore
My face turned into stone
You turned me back
into what I worked so hard not to be
You made me scared to laugh
Scared to cry
You made me feel unworthy of myself
You made me hate you
and hate myself for loving you so much
Once the happiest day of my life now the worst.
Once the person I longed for,
the one who had my heart
Now the one I hate for making me this way.
Once upon a time, 3 years ago
My life began to end

My dreams

My dreams are filled with passion.
You caressing my body.
Softly kissing my lips,
moving to my neck.
Tightly squeezing me,
like you never want to let go.

My dreams are
of your hands wrapping tightly
around my waist.
Your fingers trickling
down my spine.
Your hand
brushing the hair out of my face.
Your soft lips against mine.

My dreams are of what I want with you
I want love.
I could love you like no other
Spending my days with you.
Holding each other
as the time just slips away.

Like a cool ocean breeze

Like a cool ocean breeze
Like the sunlight warming my cold face,
You came into my life making my day bright.
The birds making music in our ears,
Our souls dance as one to the rythm.
Like a beating drum
My hearts beating for you.
Faster and Faster.
Like a caged bird,
Flying free for the first time
You got my soaring in the sky.

Untitled

The sunlight warms my soul. Its golden color shines on my face
and puts a twinkle in my eye. It rises every morning to greet me
with a loving smile. If only you were the same as the sun. Your more
like a blue moon. Your around evey once in a while,
and you always make me blue.

Miss Used Words

Dont step to me with those foolish words
Sayin You were just mad
I dont have time for your miss used words
Your perception of me is all twisted
Im not another one of those girls
Didnt you hear?
I will not be miss used and Abused
You cant take advantage of me
And you will not disrespect me
I am not a hoe.
You didnt hit
And neither will he
I am not one of those girls
You must not have heard.
I will not be miss used and Abused
So dont step to me with those foolish words
I dont have time for miss used words.

Today

Today you found out
Found out everything I am
Inside and out.
And you still want me.
All of me

Today you found out.
Found out that I did what I did
Just to be with you.
You found out that I thought you wouldnt except me

Today you found out.
Found out I was scared.
Have been scared for a long time.

Today you found out
You made my life a happier place
A Place I could be me
You made me not afraid.

Today you found out
I am the one for you.
You made me complete.

Today you found out
Everything I am
Inside and out.

Today I found out,
I love you.
You love me.
All of me.

Intamace

As the wind brishes across my face, it's the olny thing that gives me the intamace I long for. It touches me so gently, soft, and slow. As it rushes across my face Im reminded of how I want to be touched, and how you used to touch me. But you touched more then my skin. You touched my heart and soul.

Illusion and Confusion

Illusion and confusion is the conclusion.
Conclusion of my life.
All the illusion is confusing.
The real and the fake are merging together.
The truth and lies are becoming the same.
Hard to make the distinction between the two.
Illusion and confusion is the conclusion.
Conclusion of my life.

Openminded...

The reacurring nightmare I call my life. I try to change this dream but the same one keeps knocking on my door. How do I rid myself of these negative thoughts? How can I change the future and the present. By action is what they say. Why is it that every action I take has a negative occurrence? How do you change a negative into a positive? How do you change? Change what you've always been? Who you've always been? And how do you know your the one that should change? Maybe their the ones that should change. Maybe their the ones who should be more openminded. Maybe their the ones who should be more kind. But how do you know? How do you make the world understand, this is who you are. You were born like this. This is a non-stereo type mind. Who should be looked at beyond color, shape, size, beauty. My beauty is inside and out. My color is translucent, and so is yours. We are all the same. So why should I change? I shouldn't! You should just be more openminded.

Your love the killer..

Your love runs through me like blood.
Constantly flowing through my veins.
Keeping me alive.
But our love has died now
And so have I.
Blood is pouring onto the ground.
Deep.
Dark.
Red.
Soaking into the ground, and then
fading away.
Just like we did.
But the smell and the memory
will never fade.
It will be there
as a constant reminder of the
killer your love is.

My Temple

I will not be another one of those girls.
Miss used and abused, willing or not.
My body is a temple.
My temple.
There is no other ownership but my own
I will not be another one of those girls.
Afraid to say NO!
Afraid to let others know their worth.
The misconception is all women are "video girls"
But video girls aren't the real girls.
They are simply what the male mind perceives us to be.
But see I'm here to set the record straight.
I will not be another one of those girls.
My body is a temple.
My temple

My Pin, My paper

My Pin, My paper.
I confide in them.
My pin tells everything as it scribles down how I feel down onto this piece of paper.
My paper inhales every word as its own.
Its as id the words just appear and there everything I am feeling inside.
My whole soul goes down onto this paper.
The paper listens.
No feed back.
Listens with no judgement.
My paper knows my life story.
Every secret
Every late night
Every tear that falls off my cheek,
falls straight to my paper.
And it absorbs everything
again and again
Its always here
no matter what time,
how long,
or how sad.
It keeps listening
without judging me.
My pin My paper.

Distant Lover

My distant lover
Something about you
keeps me coming back for more
there's something in the way you talk to me
and there's something in the way
you get apart of me no one else gets.
My distant lover you are.
Distance is no object
when it comes to me and you.
But someday we'll jump over this distance
and collide in each others arms.
Becoming One.
Distance is no match for us.
My distant Lover.

Looking Toward the sky..

I miss you like the warm summer breeze blowing through my hair.

Its faded away now because it is cold.

To cold to bare all alone.

But Im doing it.

All by myself.

This coldness is cold enough to make honey go sour.

But Im looking toward the sky

waiting till the day I'll have someone by myside to make this cold bareable.

But that time seems so far away.

I'll never know when it is going to come,

if its ever going to come.

But I'll keep looking toward the sky,

keeping my head held high.

But as the days go by

they get colder and colder.

Im not sure how much longer I can hold on by myself.

This cold is unbareable when your alone.

People Change

People change, feelings rearrange. Thoughts of pain come in vein to the brain to rearrange peoples feelings. Love rearranges to hate.Happiness rearranges to sadness.

People change, feelings rearrange thoughts of pain come in vein to explain why people change. Change because of fright, Afraid to reunitewith the sight of their uncertainty of themselves.

People change feelings rearrange. Thoughts of pain come in vein, to make people change. Bitter sweet is the passion that rations this change.

People change feelings rearrange. Thoughts of pain come in vein to the brain to rearrange peoples feelings.