Energy

I've lost all my energy
and I'm mad
I'm mad at myself for letting you do this to me
For letting myself feel so close to you
When in actual reality you know nothing about me

You don't even understand me
That I'm emotional
That I give my all
That you mean everything to me

I'm so mad at myself
For having these feelings
For believing what you said
For wasting my time

And I'm even more mad at myself
For wanting to do it all over again
Because truth is I really love you
And every second I'm with you I feel complete

And now I've lost all my energy
Because I gave it all to you
To get nothing in return

Why

I shouldn't have to convince myself everyday that you love me
What you say and do are two different things
Words have no meaning if there isn't an action coincide with it

How do you expect me to keep doing this?
How can I hold on to something that isn't here
How can I hold on to someone I don't even speak to

Why should I sell myself sort for your words?
Because that's all I have
And I have very few of them

I don't understand how you can love someone
Yet never seem to think of them
And if you do think of me its not shown

So tell me how am I supposed to do this?
How am I to do this alone?

You got another thing comin

I thought the whole point of being in a relationship was so you could share life together: Confide in them, spend time with them, and love them. All of these must go hand-n-hand.

So tell me how is it we have a relationship? You say we've got the love part, but I know there is something lacking. We don't spend a lot of time together and we hardly talk. Your always the first I want to call when anything happens in my life, but I always seem to be the last to know.

So tell me! How does this work? 'Cause if this is your idea of a real relationship then baby you got another thing comin'.

See in my heart I know I love you and I know that I've given all of me to you. But this is supposed to be 50/50 and I've got nothing in return. I get little of your time and very few of your words.

So tell me again how is this supposed to work?

Real love is full-time over-time and I can see your not ready to put in the work. I really hope this isn't your idea of a real relationship. 'Cause if it is then baby you got another thing comin'.

Goodbye

The time is coming when we will have to say goodbye
Goodbye till I see you again

When will I see you again?
Will things change while you are gone?
Will our love start to fade?
Most of all will you find another?

The time is coming when we will have to say goodbye
Goodbye till I see you again

My heart aches at the thought of this coming to an end
I thought I had found my happily ever after
Now come to find out my happily ever after has to leave
And now we are going to try the long distance thing

When will I see you again?
Will things change while you are gone?
Will our love start to fade?
Most of all will you find another?

The time is coming when we will have to say goodbye
Goodbye till I see you again

I hope I see you again...

3 days..

I'm up in the wee hours of the morning

thinking...

3 days till you are gone

What am I going to do?

I cant even begin to imagine how I am going to feel when we say goodbye