Different

Who is this man I have came across
Im trying to take it slow
But he is making it so hard

The passion that we have between us is amazing
it flows through us and makes us one
I've never felt such passion in my life

For once he is saying all the things that I was always the first to say
and it scares me
I just dont want to mess it up

People talk about my past
how I go from one to another
true
but this one could be different
here to stay
I just dont want to mess it up

Old love

I miss what I always wanted us to be
What I always dreamed of
what I imagined every night

but the reality is it never was
never will be
never could be

it was the perfect love in my mind
my heart yearned for you every night

but it was never returned
you never felt the same way I did
the love was never returned

Love Me

Maybe I should just give up
Maybe its just not my time

(Will it ever be my time)

Im tired of all the games
Im tried of getting played

I need someone who is going to be down for me
Someone who is going to be real

I need someone who isnt going to run at the sign of problems
Nothing will ever work out if you just run

(I've learned that the hard way)

But why cant anyone else seem to see that
Why dosent anyone want to try

I dont give up
I never have

If I find something I want
then I will get it

But maybe its time for me to give up
Maybe I should just give up on love

Maybe I should just put myself first
Forget life long love

(Exactly what I want)

Maybe it is time
Time for me to Love me and no one else

Dont Question Me!

Never thought I would be back to this place
I never thought someone would get to me like this again
But here I am
I don't know what to do with myself
How did I get here
I never would have thought it would turn into this
I'm not even sure how it did

And you keep rubbing it in my face
trying to explain to me why you should mean nothing to me
But I cant help how I feel
The factors do not matter
The facts truly are
I love you
That's it
Everything else doesn't matter
That's how I feel and if you cant handle that then I don't know what to say
But don't tell me how I feel
Or how you expect me to feel because its not fair to me
I've told you how I feel
And you question it over and over again
I dont know what I did to make you think that I dont care
But I do

2 days

I really feel I messed it up big this time
I just want to run and hide
but I cant
its coming
fast
and I gotta face it
but I dont want to
I knew what I was doing when I said yes
but I said it anyway
Why
I knew I couldnt
I have so much I cant do
so much holding me back
so much he doesn't know
so much I want to tell him
I really care
I really do
I wish he knew
Because in a few days he will think otherwise
He will think it was all a lie
My feelings were never a lie
they never will be
He is the one thing that has come along thats is good
and I know its true and real
and I know I want it more then anything
and I haven't done anything but mess it up
just like I always do
I cant do anything about it now
two days from now he will be gone
I can feel him slipping
and I don't know what to do