2 days

I really feel I messed it up big this time
I just want to run and hide
but I cant
its coming
fast
and I gotta face it
but I dont want to
I knew what I was doing when I said yes
but I said it anyway
Why
I knew I couldnt
I have so much I cant do
so much holding me back
so much he doesn't know
so much I want to tell him
I really care
I really do
I wish he knew
Because in a few days he will think otherwise
He will think it was all a lie
My feelings were never a lie
they never will be
He is the one thing that has come along thats is good
and I know its true and real
and I know I want it more then anything
and I haven't done anything but mess it up
just like I always do
I cant do anything about it now
two days from now he will be gone
I can feel him slipping
and I don't know what to do