With Her

As I pour my heart down onto this page
My stomach starts to jump at the thought

You could be with her

Always on my mind
all the possibilities are killing me

You could be with her

Ive tried and tried to get you to see
just how much you mean to me

You could be with her

And you've told me time and time again
I don't have time for a girlfriend

And now your with her

I didn't see this one coming
I had no idea you were this way

And now your with her

Now my heart is breaking
my body is shaking

And your with her....

Desire

Listening to music
as the time flows by

Trying to get my mind off you
Nothing seems to work

I'm having a hard time
letting go of you

Everything you did
everything you said

It was everything thing I ever wanted
All that you were was what I desired

And you cant seem to understand
I want to be everything you desire

Its time

Day by day
it seems to get harder and harder

Constant questions in my mind
Why did you do this

I cant seem to understand
Where it all went wrong

Frustrated
and confused

Wishing and hoping
one day you'll come back

Heat rushes over my body
I cant take anymore

On the virge of crying
day after day

And you just don't care...

Its time
I've got to let go

Using Me

I think about this everyday
You just turned and walked away
Leaving behind those worthless words
You tried to make this seem right
But I looked past your words
and saw the light
You'd been see though all this time
but I was blinded by the light
Now I see what you really were
Using me until the time was right
I let this go way to far
the lust and love hypnotize
I cant help but wonder
Why you did this to me
It make me cry just to think
I actually thought we could be
More then just a late night call
You were everything I wanted yet nothing at all
But now I see
You were just using me

Ive Been Waiting

Feeling lost
no love around

When is mine coming
Ive been waiting

Trying to let fate kick in
but dosent seem like its ganna happen

I used to have someone
I tought I'd spend my life with

but we've both changed
and grew apart

Feeling lost
no love around

when is mine coming
Ive been waiting

I thought I had found someone
He is everything I want in a man

But he dosent want to be with me
says he dosent have time

But he always finds time to come
when he needs to see me

Feeling lost
no love around

When is mine coming
Ive been waiting

Nameless Names

She's got her list of nameless names
Only 17 and so many to count,
but none to really remember

Many know her physically
but none know her truely

She's done so much in such a short period
With no love to show from a man

None of which she still speaks to
All of which have already forgot about her

She was looking in all the wrong places for love
Trying to fill that void in her heart; still unfilled

Looking for love in the arms of a man has never been the way to go
Yet she still tries

With hopes to someday find that man
who will look beyond her big booty and grey eyes

Im breaking down

Im not sure how much longer I can go without knowing why? Im trying to respect his wishes and not bother him, but its killing me daily not knowing why?

Why is a question that is asked daily? And an answer that is often never heard.

Im breaking down

Just some thoughts in my head

So yesterday I recieved an e-mail from the guy I have been seeing for a year now saying "I dont think we should see or speak for a while. I am going through something right now. The reason is that I cant just talk to you without being physical." those are the exact words!

I dont understand why. Why would he say he cant speak or see me anymore? Is it something I did or said. What exactly is he going through? And how could he tell me this over an email? Seriously, thats messed up. Im so confused. I just dont get it. I saw him less then two weeks ago and everything was fine. I talked to him the other day and everything was fine. And then I get this!! He said you cant speak to me without being physical, when did I say we couldnt be?? I just dont understand why. He needs to give me a reason as to why.

Ok so no offence to the guys who read this. But why do guys do this? Or should I say why do people do this? A lot of people seem to beat around the bush. Why cant you just come right out and say what you mean. I mean he could of at least told me a real reason as to why he dosent want to speak for a while.

He wasnt you

I spent the night with another
I was thinking something other
then the fact that he wasn't you

We laughed
We flirted
but he wasn't you

He pulled me close
rubbed my back
did anything to touch me

We laughed
We flirted
but he wasn't you

The conversation flowed
music played in the background
but all the time you face appeared in my mind

We laughed
We flirted
but he wasn't you

As we layed there
he was touching me, caressing me
I felt like I betrayed you

We laughed
We flirted
but he wasn't you

As the sun came up
so did I to find he had left me
to think of you

We laughed
We flirted
but he wasn't you

I sat there listening to him
in the other room on the phone
and wished, I'd spent the night with you

We laughed
We flirted
but he wasn't you

Although you and me aren't together
I still feel like I cheated because...

We laughed
We flirted
but..

He will never be you

What she dosent know

You've been tryin to get at me
Always tryin to holla

-But she's always around

Callin me on the phone
Blowin me kisses

-But what ya girl dont know is you feelin me

Askin me to come over
sayin we need to spend sometime

-But what ya girl dont know is you feelin me

The sexy stares you give
sayin my body look good to you

-But what ya girl dont know is you feelin me

Tellin me she aint home
to come on over

-What ya girl dont know is you feelin me

My secret Passion

I had him
right where I've been wanting him
he was about to be mine

I was dreaming of this day
waiting to get close

Feeling his hands touching my body
Felt so right but was so wrong

He kissed me
He touched me

It took all I had to pull back
I didnt let it go to far
It had already went far enough

I stood their thinking
"You've been waiting for this,
Go for it"

But I just left
And now Im stuck with this lingering
memory that just wont fade