Our relationship

Its so crazy to think that Im through with you

I really have no disire to be with you anymore.
I dont even want to talk to you

I still love you.
That will never change.

But I honestly dont think I want to be with you any longer.

I fought so hard in the beginning to be with you,
now I have no fight left in me.

You took all I had.
You pushed every button.

Everything that you could ever do to hurt me..
and push me away
YOU did.

But I stayed and endured.
I fought and begged you to stay.

And now Im tired.
I dont want to fight anymore.
I dont want to beg and pleed with you to stay.

I shouldnt have to convince you everyday to be with me.
I shouldnt have to convince you that I care.

If you dont know by now, then you will never know.

I dont want to end this.
I always pictured forever with you
and still do.

But maybe thats not whats ment to be.
Right now this relationship is one way.
and I know that Im not doing my part.

But I did all of my part in the beginning.
I did both parts for two years.

If it wasnt for me
we would have fell apart along time ago.

Now you are complaining that you are doing all the work
and you know..
its kinda of funny.

Because now you know what I went through
Its hard being in a relationship,
and be the only one working hard at it.

This isnt revenge this is just how the ball rolls.
I didnt plan it to be this way.
I never wanted it to be this way.

I was convinced that I would never get over you
and never want to be without you.

But maybe I was wrong.
I still love you, that will never change,
that Im sure of.

But I dont want to be with you anymore.
I cant.
I dont have the time, or the energy.

I wish you could see all that you put me through.
HOw I was in the beginning.

That I gave my all..
But you dont realize that
and I dont think you ever will.

You see your way.
and I see mine.

You'll never understand what I went though.
You think I should just be over it.

And I am.
But you hurt me in a way I was umprepared for.
I wasnt expecting it.

And maybe thats why I changed.
But somewhere in between..
I fell out of love.

Between..
the lies,
putting me down,
and all around not appreciating me

I fell out of love.
and its something I cant get back.
I tried but its gone.