I know we have has this conversation, but I really cant settle for only this. Not knowing what is going on in your brain kills me. Not knowing exactly how you feel drives me nuts. You tell me everything, but how your feeling. And I know we are together, but I need to know how you feel. And I know you told me you dont want a girlfriend, and thats fine, but I need to know how you feel. There has to be some kind of something there. I mean we have been talking for almost a year now. I mean there has to be someway you feel about me. Wheather it is just friends, or more. You never tell me. You just say you enjoy my company. Well thats all fine..but I need to know more. Is this every going to go anywhere? Or is this it forever? AM I just someone to occupy your time? I need to know. When we are together, I feel so good, and I know you feel it to. The attration, and the chemistry

Visions of you and me

Visions of you and me
Together as one
Flowing through my mind
Thinking of only you
Needing you near
To feel your touch

Visions of you and me
keeping me going
Leaveing me waiting for the next time
Needing to feel you
Dreaming of forever

Visions of you and me...

you

The way you put it on me
Ive never had anyone else put it on me

You got me craving you
wanting you near

every second
every minute

every hour
every day

The way you take control over my body
got me floating

I just want to be near you

so high

You got me so high
baby boy Im mesmerized
I love your smile
your laugh
your every deminer.
You get me so high
I love every moment Im with you
Ive got dreams of being the only one
You and me always and forever
Im dreaming of the day I make you mine
Because
You get me so high

Sleep

When I sleep
I dream of you next to me
The day I get to hold you tight
all through the night

I cant wait for the day
Your mine all night
Just to open my eyes
and see such a sight

When we'd sleep
You'd hold me tight
Keeping me warm
with all your might

Spending the night
together as one
Falling in love
with out a fright

Poetry to me

Your like poetrty to me
the way you move
the way you speak
flows like a sweet rythm to my heart

Your smile, your look
they just add to the sweetness
of your poetry

Your like poetry to me
the poetry that only I can see
and only I can feel

No one else can understand
such magical poetry

Your like poetry to me
The way you move
The way you speak
flows like a sweet rythm to my heart

The things you say

"Number One girl"- you say I am

I cant help but second guess the words that slip from your lips
You speak so smoothy
And say everything at the right time

Is it real

Ive been longing for this moment
Waiting for you to change your mind
Waiting for the day you say you want to be mine

Has it come

Have you finally realized...
All that is in front of you
All that I can give to you

Are you just playin

You say you would never hurt me
then please say all you say it true
tell me you want me the way that I want you

I cant take this any longer

Im a bout to explode
Your the one I need
The one I want

Im falling....

the way

The way you do the things you do
You speak so smoothly to me
Your words flow out so easily

I want them so bad to be true
But I cant help but wonder
Are you telling the truth

I want so bad for you to be mine
I dream day and night
of you by myside

I close my eyes and
see your sweet face,
feel your soft touch

I cant help but fall each time we touch
I try to control myself
but these feelings just will not budge

You know what you do to me
how could you not
its in every look...every touch

I say it to you every time
I look into your eyes

Changed

The things you tell me, are what I have always dreamed you'd say.
Every night I would dream of you and me forever, and wish you would stay.
Now your everything I have ever dreamed of and more

And..

I cant help but think my flame for you was blown out.
I know you feel it too.
Its in everything I say and every action I take.

How it came to this point I have know idea.
I used to be so in love.
I faught for our love, everyday.

I begged and pleeded for you to stay.
Now I dont really care.
Im trying to make myself want to be with you still

But I think thats something I just can not do.
I dont want to get to the point when we hate each other,
or have no contact at all

But I really can not see being friends with someone I have loved for so long.
There are feelings there.
The kind of feelings that will never fade.

But they arent the feelings I want to be with you,
I just dont want anyone eles to have you, o
or at leasts I'd like to not know about it.

I would be fine with us not talking everyday.
Once a month would be good for me.
I dont need everyday conversations

because to me our love has died.
But I dont want you out of my life.
And Im afraid if I tell you I dont want to be with you, you will end it all together.

I wish you could just see
my love has changed.

I dont know how, and I dont know why.
I just know I dont feel the same.
Maybe it was you, maybe it was me.

Or maybe our relationship has just ran its corse.

I love you...still.
And Im still unsure of what I really want.

I think we both just need time.

Our relationship

Its so crazy to think that Im through with you

I really have no disire to be with you anymore.
I dont even want to talk to you

I still love you.
That will never change.

But I honestly dont think I want to be with you any longer.

I fought so hard in the beginning to be with you,
now I have no fight left in me.

You took all I had.
You pushed every button.

Everything that you could ever do to hurt me..
and push me away
YOU did.

But I stayed and endured.
I fought and begged you to stay.

And now Im tired.
I dont want to fight anymore.
I dont want to beg and pleed with you to stay.

I shouldnt have to convince you everyday to be with me.
I shouldnt have to convince you that I care.

If you dont know by now, then you will never know.

I dont want to end this.
I always pictured forever with you
and still do.

But maybe thats not whats ment to be.
Right now this relationship is one way.
and I know that Im not doing my part.

But I did all of my part in the beginning.
I did both parts for two years.

If it wasnt for me
we would have fell apart along time ago.

Now you are complaining that you are doing all the work
and you know..
its kinda of funny.

Because now you know what I went through
Its hard being in a relationship,
and be the only one working hard at it.

This isnt revenge this is just how the ball rolls.
I didnt plan it to be this way.
I never wanted it to be this way.

I was convinced that I would never get over you
and never want to be without you.

But maybe I was wrong.
I still love you, that will never change,
that Im sure of.

But I dont want to be with you anymore.
I cant.
I dont have the time, or the energy.

I wish you could see all that you put me through.
HOw I was in the beginning.

That I gave my all..
But you dont realize that
and I dont think you ever will.

You see your way.
and I see mine.

You'll never understand what I went though.
You think I should just be over it.

And I am.
But you hurt me in a way I was umprepared for.
I wasnt expecting it.

And maybe thats why I changed.
But somewhere in between..
I fell out of love.

Between..
the lies,
putting me down,
and all around not appreciating me

I fell out of love.
and its something I cant get back.
I tried but its gone.