Again and Again

I feel my eyes start to swell
Words flow through my head
but wont come out

Broken
Hurt
Confused

This place I came to know
and tried so hard to get out of

Now Im back
Not really sure how I got here
Again and again

My happiess comes and goes
so fast
I get a glimpes
and then its gone as soon as I start to feel

Why
WHY!
I scream why

But the answers are no where to be found
Im back to this place...again

Speachless

You got me speachless

When you come around my knees get weak
and I cant speak.

Tell me your feeling the same?
I need to know?

Do you love me the way that I love you?

Fixing yourself

Constantly tryin to remake my soul
Tryin to fix my problems
Always tryin to make myself better

To be content with myself is what I need
be happy with what I have
and what I get

And most importantly
be happy with me
who I am inside

But how do you be content with yourself
without a lil change

Change things without really changing yourself
seems nearly imposible

in these times it is so hard to be true to yourself
Stand up to what you believe in without being shot down
feelings come and go without being told all the time

Life

This life...
This experience...

Its takin hold of me
Putting its tole on me

Why do things happen the way they do?
So many questions running through my mind
constantly flowing...
on and on

Yet no answers subside..

I need to break free
This visous cycle is killing me
There has got to be a way out

My mind is caging me
All that is me
Is flowing away

The person I was
Is now lost
She left me along time ago

Her feelings
Her knowledge
All gone

She was once so smart
Capable of doing anything
But now she has changed

She is floating along
Breezing by
Letting her life pass by

Emotions are flowing

My emotions are flowing
Whipping and twirling

Sweeping me over
Taking hold of my body

Swaying me
conveying me

Leaving questions in my mind

Who have I become?
Loveless...
Lifeless...
Speechless...

Never would have thought
the day would come when I searched for words

That is what you do to me
You leave me speechless
Breathless
Wanting more

And yet more questions arise

Do you feel the same way?
longing to hold me...
to feel so much more...

My emotions are flowing
Whipping and twirling

Sweeping me over
Taking hold of my body

Swaying me
Conveying me