Someone New

My heart is split in half
part of me wants somone new
part of me just wants you

I was so tired of the way you treated me
time after time I cried and said I was done

Here I find myself face to face
with the possibility of someone new

And I hesitate

Thinking of you and how we used to be
wondering if you and me could be

The good times keep me coming back
letting the bad times fade away

I constantly remind myself of why I left

Here I stand next face to face with someone new
and I cant seem to get you off my mind

where

I finally decided your where I want to be


and now...


You dont know where you want to be....

The Phone Call

You called
My heart skipped a beat when I heard the message

As your words flowed over my answering machine
memories of before raced through my mind

All the good came to mind
I found myself wanting to try this all over again

I called

Your voice came over the phone
just as it always had

Smooth and calming
sending chills just like it was the first time

I couldn't help but wonder
why you decided to call after all this time

At first it was just small talk
but my heart couldn't take it anymore

I had to tell him
I missed him

He gave no response
So I just had to ask
why

His answer was just as harsh as it has always been
He acted like he didn't care

Like the only reason he called was just because of boredom.
My heart broke a little all over again

The rest of the conversation was short and quiet
I let him get to me all over again

In a matter of an hour
I was back where I started 5 months ago

I couldn't understand why he would call just to talk

Didn't he miss me
Didn't he care

We hung up the phone
and there I sit

Wondering how a simple phone call
Could break my heart all over again

Kiss Me

I look up to you
You look in my eyes
I can feel the tention
Kiss me

You look down to me
Your eyes penatrate mine
Your lips naturaly poute
Kiss me

The passion I feel
Everytime you come near
the sexual tention is so clear
Cant you feel it?

KISS ME!!

Carefully Constructed Wall

My feelings for you have grown
And I've learned to know
That those feelings aren't returned to me
I'm confused at the thought
that I forgot
to put up that wall
once so carefully constructed
Now in pieces on the ground
My hearts vulnerable
and your easing your way in
My carefully constructed wall
Has begun to fall

We're over

I was holding on to the past
trying to hold us together
But it was a battle I'd never win
We've been together for so long
How could I let go
Your all I've ever known
All I ever dreamed of
But the nights keep getting longer
And the phone calls are getting shorter
How could you let our love die
Together forever
That's what we thought we'd be
And I believed it
Every last word that came out your mouth
And now we're over

I wont take you back

As I look around
so many different people
so many different thoughts
Words are being spoken
But none are really heard
My minds wondering...

Back to you

The last time I saw you
the way I felt
The smile I smiled

and now...

Its all changed
you and me have rearranged
Anger comes over me
you turned your back
Time after time I've taken you back
but not this time
This time you went to far
you cant take it back
I wont take you back

Scared
Lonely
Shaking

I've been waiting Srearching and anticipating
For a new love to come and fill the space you left in my heart

Why do I find myself wanting to talk to you once more
longing to hear your voice on the other end

Dreaming of the love we once had
hoping and wishing it never went away

You never cared

We used to talk everyday
Hours and hours on the phone

You would call just to see how my day went
and tell me you love me

Now I dont hear a word
Not hello or goodbye

You act as if you and me never were

If you love someone how do you just not call
after all I should be the one mad

You cheated one me
I was always good to you

I never lied
I was a good girlfriend

I gave you my all
and now you disrespect me

You treat me like just some girl off the street
I dont want you back
dont get me wrong

But I do still care about you
and it would be nice to hear from you every once ina while

Just to make sure you are ok.
Maybe Im just different then you

Maybe you never really cared.

Four Years of me and you
down the drain

Its been so long since I last seen you
since I last heard your voice

You did me so wrong
but yet my mind always comes back to you

Its so hard for me
I cant seem to let you be a memory

Our love was my every thing
You were my everything

and I was your nothing
I was just another girl to you

How can that be
after four years

How can you just move on and not care?