As the years, months, and days go by...
I think...
Where am I going? How am I going to survive?
Do I really have what it takes?
Have I been putting forth my all?
Some of these questions I know the answer too.
I havent been giving my all.
I have been doing the bare minimum.
And look what it has brought to me.
I have less then a year left, and Im freaking.
Am I going to get accepted to college?
A University?? Or do I have to go the community route?
And have to retake classes, I should have already done my best in.
Is there where I have taken myself?
Is it to late to act right?
And what is the most disappointing, I have know one to blame but myself.
All my life I have walked around... feeling some what sorry for myself.
Always trying to find someone eles to blame...and when I see other people who do that
I always have so much to say to them as to why they shouldnt be that way.
Yet all along I should have been taking my own advice. I should have gave my all.
As a person, and as a student. Not for others, but for myself.
My future, is in my hands. And I want so bad to do something with my life. Im really not sure what my calling is.. I want to help everyone.
Ive always said I was going to be a lawyer, but how do I know I am going to be satisfied with that? I dont want to be another one of those people who hate their jobs. And I dont want to go to school for law and then end up not liking it and wanting to change jobs. I mean..most of the careers today you have to have some kind of school for them. Education is the thing to have now. and Im not stupid. but I really just dont know what my calling is. I have thought for so long that it was law, but I dont know anymore. Maybe it isnt. How do I know?? How can I figure this out? how do you figure it out without trying it first? And to go to school for up to 7years, and then not like it. Waste!!! I just dont know what to do? Get into college and then do what?? So much to do, and I really dont know how to do it all!!
