Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Round and Round

'Round and 'Round we go
Up and down
Side to side

Our relationship is always changing
rearranging
never staying the same

Why is it we make up and break up?
To much time
to little time

not enough time
to play little games

Stay together
or not?
When is it going to stop?

Friday, January 19, 2007

LIFE!!! Grrr to much to think about!!

As the years, months, and days go by...
I think...
Where am I going? How am I going to survive?
Do I really have what it takes?
Have I been putting forth my all?
Some of these questions I know the answer too.
I havent been giving my all.
I have been doing the bare minimum.
And look what it has brought to me.
I have less then a year left, and Im freaking.
Am I going to get accepted to college?
A University?? Or do I have to go the community route?
And have to retake classes, I should have already done my best in.
Is there where I have taken myself?
Is it to late to act right?
And what is the most disappointing, I have know one to blame but myself.
All my life I have walked around... feeling some what sorry for myself.
Always trying to find someone eles to blame...and when I see other people who do that
I always have so much to say to them as to why they shouldnt be that way.
Yet all along I should have been taking my own advice. I should have gave my all.
As a person, and as a student. Not for others, but for myself.
My future, is in my hands. And I want so bad to do something with my life. Im really not sure what my calling is.. I want to help everyone.
Ive always said I was going to be a lawyer, but how do I know I am going to be satisfied with that? I dont want to be another one of those people who hate their jobs. And I dont want to go to school for law and then end up not liking it and wanting to change jobs. I mean..most of the careers today you have to have some kind of school for them. Education is the thing to have now. and Im not stupid. but I really just dont know what my calling is. I have thought for so long that it was law, but I dont know anymore. Maybe it isnt. How do I know?? How can I figure this out? how do you figure it out without trying it first? And to go to school for up to 7years, and then not like it. Waste!!! I just dont know what to do? Get into college and then do what?? So much to do, and I really dont know how to do it all!!